Heartache: emotional pain or distress; sorrow; grief; anguish.
Heartbreak: great sorrow; grief; anguish.
Heartbeat: a pulsation of the heart, including one complete systole and diastole.
Heartthrob: a passionate or sentimental emotion.
Well, all these words don’t seem similar at all. But they all have at least one thing in common, they deal with your heart. If you follow me on twitter (@confident_girls) you probably know that I was asked on a date..two consecutive nights in a row. I bailed on the first one and now I’m sitting here trying to think of an excuse for the second one. Then I started thinking to myself…why? Why am I bailing on this guy who I could potentially date.. and be in the long run with? It’s strange. I’m a very independent person so yeah, I like my space but this is just a genuine nice guy trying to take me on a date. Why can’t I just say yes…go, see what happens and if its a disaster just tell him I need to go wash my hair or bathe my dog, throw in a quick “Adios” and leave.
If you can’t already tell, I over think things. A lot. Basically everything. This is what goes through my head when I get asked on a date: “Okay so I guess this guy is into me…why? Why is he into me? What does he like about me? Am I even that pretty? Come on, I know I have my days but what? Okay yeah, I’m gonna go on this date, give it a try. But wait, what if I end up liking him and he doesn’t like me. Or what if he likes me and I don’t like him and then he’s super clingy. Ew. Or (probably the worst scenario ever) WHAT IF he likes me and I like him?! What if we date for months, or years?! What if we got married!? And thennnnn, it happens. BAM! We break up. I invested all this time into someone (who wasn’t myself) and just like that they have that whole part of me and leave with it. Why would anyone set themselves up for failure…or disaster rather. I just don’t get it.
Doubt: to be uncertain about; consider questionable or unlikely; hesitate to believe. To fear.
Yeah, I guess I doubt a lot when it comes to relationships. That’s something I’m learning to overcome. Day by day, I have to tell myself that in the end, everything works out. Maybe not the way I planned, but it works. That’s what life is all about. It’s about obstacles, passion, love, and fun. Worrying doesn’t do much for me and I realize that. Once your hurt, it’s hard to be vulnerable again but you’ll never know unless you try. I think it’s important to do new things, meet new people, and learn. Having confidence in yourself to overcome all obstacles is important. Knowing you’re strong enough to do anything and everything you want to do is important. Don’t wait for other people to tell you that you can do it, just go do it. Be proud of yourself. Be confident in yourself. And show the world what you’re made of.
With that being said, I’m going on this date.